Just goof'n around

Lovin today...its a good one. Now just kickin it at home soaking it all in...breathing...and most importantly...smilin. Love it. There are so many changes going on in my families life...its pretty sad and rad at the same time. My sisters are havin bebes and loven dem...my other sister is coming home from a year and a half stay from the Philippines. She was a representative for the Latter-day Saints church. She's going to sound so awesome with her accent she picked up there. Also my only blood brother is moving away to Florida...sadness. I am going to miss him much...just gotta get my butt up to Salt Lake and spend a couple of days with him before he peaces out on us. Love ya bro. The only thing to do now is to wait till I move onto another job. Desperately looking around for anything that will pay me an assistant to a managers pay...want it? or need it? BOTH!! 'Gotta have it!' Just like the Cold Stone size... that made me giggle a bit...there are a lot of people that I love and a lot more that I would love to love more! ha! I went skating with my roomies today...we first went over to UVU and quickly got bored...so we went over to the skate park where I made a big fool of myself, seeing that I haven't gone skating for over eight years...I could barely jump let alone skate around... so I just ended up sitting around watching everyone until the time came to peace out. It was fun though...not to bad for killing a couple hours. That be all for now... peace and love people.

(Currently listening to Everyday by Dave Matthews Band)

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There is a huge lack of friends in my life. I'm not blaming anyone or everyone for this problem...I blame only myself. I blame myself for keeping my mouth closed and not interacting with people like normal folks would do. I tend to listen...I tend to try and feel things out, rather than just saying 'fuck it, I'm going to be me to be me.' This is a problem, a problem of which I need to change and need to perfect(to the best of my ability at least). As a result to having this lack of friends I am here to talk. Here to feel out my life and re-think things and see who I really am. Ya know, things you'd usually share or vent about with a friend over a beer or a random phone call, those kinda things. I'm not saying I have absolutely no friends, because I do...but the depths of those friendship are just not there. There is one friend of mine that I feel that with...but our current standing with each other is not the greatest...maybe someday...but for now I have you Bloggy Blog... Thanks for bein there for me.

Its funny when you think that you are workin on parts of your life, you actually feel like it is getting better...but everyones view of progression is set at their own speed... Its crazy weird. Welcome to random thoughts of DJs brain. You know what else I am thinking?! Why the hell are my toes so cold is such a warm room? Why do people love? Why do mice love peanut butter? humm....everyday thoughts I guess. I wish I could just talk to my friends. Wish they could give me like just five minutes too listen to me. Reach out. care. There are so many things I could say...share...be. humm...I dont think I want to share anymore. So for now I think that this is it. Thanks blog...

(Currently listening to Ants Marching by Dave Matthews Band)

Full Moons are reflected from the Sun Soul

To give one your hand and to feel her ever so touch your face, is something less than a miracle in my eyes. I could feel lost in the traffic jams of my life, and inpatient at those stop lights from hell, but all those daily frustrations are eased by my angel who walks with me. When I am not even around her, I feel her energy. I feel the thoughts. I see the heart beats. And what do I do? I smile and no matter where I am...I know things are possible and that I am home. Even if I had no home...she is home. We are love. I wake to the sun shining in my blinds...and instead of closing them tighter...I open them with love. I see her in the sun, and I feel her in its rays. Will you warm my heart, as you warm my skin? I know you will...I know you have it in you. I can feel it, and I can feel you wanting. We both want it. I know you will feel secure as you warm my soul. The solid foundation will become more secure as you become more trusting and loving.

I look out now and see half a moon. Half a beautiful moon that is reflecting the suns light to those who cannot enjoy the sun at this time. I am the moon, and you are my sun. Together we can reach most people. Together...we are complete.

I am happy right now. Not for where the road might lead, or from where I have come. I am happy for my position for now, for today. I am breathing. I am here. I feel. I know that you feel, that you know. That you can see and smile. These things make me happy. The little things are my favorite. Why do I find so much joy in these things?! I feel as if I am still a 4 year old DJ who loves the feel of a rough rock, or the taste of snow and the feeling it makes on my tongue. I'm a 4 year old in a 26 year old body and damn proud of it. Who wants to blow some bubbles with me?! I am happy for who I am, and feel solid for who I've become and where I am going. My smile grows larger everyday I feel the sun. She is. One Love.

(Currently listening to A Slow Parade by A.A. Bondy)