In addition to the Fourth Floor Jitters

So here I sit. Same thing. Different day. I cannot run a marathon right now, to work out my RLS so I am transferring my running to my fingertips. Letting them do the work doesn't quit quench my thirst...but it'll have to do.

Two days till my first test...and ....here I sit writing. THOUGH it is totally necessary due to the fact that if I have things on my mind at times of study, I will not and cannot study. I am hoping that today's studies will suffice what I need to be that much closer to acing the BIO 1610 test. fingers crossed? Maybe?

OH my lady. Lady I am loving you now. Smiles all around these are the good ol days. Peace and love is the milk and bread of our generation and if you don't agree then you must be with The Man.

Currently listening to 'Meg White' by Ray LaMontagne

The Forth Floor Jitters

Here I sit...studying and contemplating life as we know it....well as I know it, so many different opinions I couldn't relay life into a "we" category... My leg sits here bouncing and I am filling my mind with light and knowledge that is going to make my future path apparently turn from a dusty road to a paved, then golden road. I see it...I feel it...though it hurts like hell to my knees, walking on the hardened road is "good for me".

I have made it to the level of love. I have created the sight of blind to my heart. I have filled that empty pore will goodness. This what my goals are by the end of my studies. To be full of knowledge that I turn from an everyday Joe, to an everyday Joe that KNOWS. It is interesting to see every bodies levels of knowledge. Its great to see so many different points of view to many different issues relating to politics, religion, love, hope, and intelligence. To see someone argue the truth is like talking to an apple and telling him he/she should taste like a plum. The apple had a starting point and a direction of growth and can't comprehend the taste of a plum or and orange or what not. Its interesting to see views and contemplate them....not necessarily to convert oneself to being that apple of orange...but solely VIEW. The massive achieves of life are endless and the knowledge is never ending. Love it... I love it.

These are just some of my thoughts that have gone through my head within the last day or so...though till now they were never apparent for discussion or any place to put into words. I fill good and I feel my voice is heard through my eyes and fingers. How high will you go to see the world? What are you doing to enlighten your mind to knowledge and comprehension? So many good teachers out there that don't even have names yet...you are that teacher...we teach each other...we are we. Love it and leave it...or take with...be you. Be us. Remove blinders and see. Coexist.

(Currently listening to, 'He Doesn't Know Why' by the Fleet Foxes)

not Just one of those days

So I sit in my new room thinking of what life will be like within these walls and what shapes and sounds will exist here. It is really quite fun thinking that life is yet at another beginning here and new opportunities are here. My window is cracked open and the wind is exploding through it bringing me nice cool air but also bugging the crap outta me cause the pull string is bouncing off the wall!! ugh! ..ok all fixed. But ya how awesome is this...I love it. Is it scary...yes/no...would it be easier staying back with the folks? maybe...but there is so much more given to one whom is on his own and once again I am he. I love living out I love it.

Have you ever stayed up really late, till the sun came up? Have you felt giddy about something you have yet to see all the way through? Have you ever stayed in bed tell the evening? These are all wonderful thing if you do them right. If you keep your mind spinning and weaving and not turning to mush. Life is full of chances and I believe that if we take those chances we will become happy and experience what happiness is and feel complete with those around us. Do it, step outside your "zone" and experience something new for once...who knows you might even meet your new best friend..haha ok so I don't know what I'm really getting at but what I've said is true. I like and and so will you. Keep well

Currently listening to Hunger for the Great Light, by Dave Matthews Band (Live TRAX Las Vegas 2007)

My deep set apologies

So yes I know you are all thinking, 'thank goodness he has finally changes his blog'...ok so you are probably not going to say that but you are definatly thinking that now. eh? eh?!
So much has happened in my life since the last time I posted...lets see..Im single...Im the manager at the Sticker Shop and wanting to shoot myself...its not too bad but just feeling the pressure from the guys upstairs...but they can just eat it...and plus they are younger than me soooo yeah, I pretty much am awesome and know more than them ;) lol ya but serisously...they could use some pointers if they'd give me the light of day and take their noses out of all the 'How to run your own buisness' books...but I wont be there too much longer..which brings me to my next point...

I just finished my certification for phlibotomy this past week and lets say that I am Stoked!! oh yeah! I aced the final and loved the feeling...I really have a new view on life and achivements...There is no reason why, this fall when I enroll into school, I should get less than 100% on a test or in anything...it all comes down to preparing yourself for that passing point. I have always settled for being a 'B' averaged student my whole life and I am not really happy with that...why cant I be and A student?! I put my self down there and there I have stayed but I am desperatly attempting to pull myself out of that this year and years to come.

But to get to my point from before...I am trying to get a job in Phlebotomy right now..so I can do it full time at a hospital and part-time during school so I can pay 100% attention to my school and get it all done...and get em done and do em good. Any who, thats what I think. If things go well for me I'll have my Biology degree within the next two years. And I'm on the fence to either go into Medicine or Dentistry..so well see. Stay tuned!!

Currently listening to: Highly Suspicious by My Morning Jacket

And I said...Its alright...da buddada buddada buddada

The things in our lives that make such a huge difference are always those things that go unseen and unnoticed because they are taken for granted. I love being in Seattle and the experiences are great...living somewhere new is amazing and frustrating but you learn to adjust and adapt...The winters are very cloudy and rainy here, and day in day out you start to except it for what it is and life. Then one day...one blessed day things seem different...I woke up to bright warm rays squeezing through my blinds screaming to me to wake up!! Almost as efficient as my mother singing "Oh what a beautiful morning....oh what a beautiful day". The benefit I get with waking to the sun, is no threat of a cup of water to the face. So I smiled, and rose... I feel so much energy with the sun...it was a grand day. I bathed in it down at Golden Gardens beach where these pictures were taken.

The sun I now know is a constant need of mine. I love the sun. I love the heat..I love the sun spots that that so cozily snuggle into my skin. I love the sun. Truly my attitude was completely different that day..and the following two days as well. My eyes were wide and smiling with much glee. I left people happier that day. Keep well

(Currently listening to Delicate by Damien Rice(Live from Union Chapel))

Words and Thought for today

So what can I say...really not too much...The days have become repetitive...the sun is on its way down when I'm waking up...I wait tell the hour I go to work, which is sadly the highlight of my day...then I end up pacing around the Kiosk for Borders book store and in four hours only sell seven items. The repetitiveness alone is going to kill me. I read alot more now. I found a steal of a deal when I went to the local library...Everything is Illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer...hardback...for only a dollar! And it is in great condition! I kinda jumped for joy when I saw it. I had to rub my eyes a few times and still couldn't believe it, so I had to go and ask the library woman lady...she said my dreams have come true and yes that is only a dollar. So I have thrown that book into my 'books I need to read' category. I'm currently finishing up Bright Shiny Morning..and yet another James Frey..And since everyone is so high on this Twilight I have convinced myself that I need to at least read the first book. I would like to read the Journals of the Freedom Writers too. Thought that would be pretty interesting and humbling.

Another benefit about being at the Kiosk is that you get to watch everybody in the mall...witness their arguments...see how transparent their faces. I wonder if they realize how much they show of their person. Who they really are. Who they are trying to hide from the world by placing up blocks and covering their soul...putting on a front. It is pretty interesting...but as soon as they notice that someone is looking they tighten the laces and go back into hiding. Much like a hermit crab. Some people just don't care and are who they are, which is awesome. Picture this, a slightly overweight man wearing glasses, and a tight blue t-shirt that must have been purchased in the 70's tucked into his worn down jeans that are well over his navel on his quite large stomach. This man also wears a long black beard that is slightly greying and a full head of scraggly head. As you follow his arms down you notice that they are crossed yet one had is missing. It is inside a hand puppet. This man is walking around with a puppet of a sloth, and as he walks by every person he starts moving the sloth like crazy and opening and closing its mouth and at the exact same time he, himself, is opening and closing his mouth. I know that his goal to all of the awesome awkwardness that he creates is to just make people smile and have people smile again...I can't help but laugh everything I see him approaching...cause I am easily entertained that stuff just makes me bust up with laughter. Though the common everyday man may say he is weird..I say right on! I feel that there should be more sloth puppet men in the world...My whole life I have only met two..the other was in Mexico...It was feakin awesome! Peace

(Currently listening to Here It Goes Again by Ok Go)

Its 2009...

So it has happened..its here...its done. We are officially in a new year and there are goals being made due to tradition...I myself am not going to write any cause my goals are on going...and all the new year does is 'remind us' to make them...cause we all know that we might make it to march or even April with our making our goals before we completely forget about them all together..so due to that I am just staying the same and working on the same goals I've always personally had...I may try to not tease so much...since that is a huge part of my life and others seem to hate it. I don't think I've met one person who has liked it...except for my little sis Lacey who, when I was away in Mexico, wrote me and told me that I was right and that she really did miss it. HA!! So there is one person out of hundreds maybe even thousands that have taken the brunt of my teasing. But I finally have done what for many years have wanted to do..and that is to be in a big city during new years, I went and watched a spectacular firework performance at the Space Needle in Seattle Center...it was amazing! I have many pictures but no real way to upload them..as soon as I get a new computer that works...you'll see pictures galor. So it seems that Borders have given me the silent thumbs up with my performance, "thank you. Thank you" and have decided to keep me on as one of their 'regular' employees. (yay) but seeing the major hours I put into working and the check that i received today...makes me want to cry..I need to get another job...this is just enough to pay my bills and have me eat TV dinners tell the next two weeks. I wish I had never quite my AE job..I was getting paid more than double for the same amount of hours that I did...it sucks... So I'm thinking about selling my car again...and pay off my loan..and just use the bus to get around. Though the last time I took it a big ol African-American bum was on it and looked at me and so I looked at him cause he caught my attention and then proceeded to talk to the bus drive using his outside voice, on how 'boring' people are...and people meaning me. I had no idea he was talking about me tell ten minutes later. He was going on and on and on about that...apparently my spaced out face is grimacing of some sorts. Which is sad...I need to start spacing out with a smile on my face. So anyway, he thought I was being racist...which if he really know what I was thinking wouldn't have said that. I thought he was cool cause he was talking about old Jazz music and sports and the Eastern coast...but then he left a sour taste in my mouth due to his comments. When I got up to get off the bus he stuck his face in my face and glared at me and I just smiled and kept walking, then when I got off called me a name that I cannot repeat. Its funny how angry people get and the perceptions they have. So long story short...I'm going to keep to the back of the bus from now on where the Indy kids and weirdos sit...they are much more chill and I tend to be left at peace...sometimes have some interesting conversations which strangers and hear peoples ideas about the world...I love hearing every ones points of views on things..its quite entertaining.

(Currently listening to The Moon and Antarctica by Modest Mouse)