Its 2009...

So it has happened..its here...its done. We are officially in a new year and there are goals being made due to tradition...I myself am not going to write any cause my goals are on going...and all the new year does is 'remind us' to make them...cause we all know that we might make it to march or even April with our making our goals before we completely forget about them all together..so due to that I am just staying the same and working on the same goals I've always personally had...I may try to not tease so much...since that is a huge part of my life and others seem to hate it. I don't think I've met one person who has liked it...except for my little sis Lacey who, when I was away in Mexico, wrote me and told me that I was right and that she really did miss it. HA!! So there is one person out of hundreds maybe even thousands that have taken the brunt of my teasing. But I finally have done what for many years have wanted to do..and that is to be in a big city during new years, I went and watched a spectacular firework performance at the Space Needle in Seattle Center...it was amazing! I have many pictures but no real way to upload them..as soon as I get a new computer that works...you'll see pictures galor. So it seems that Borders have given me the silent thumbs up with my performance, "thank you. Thank you" and have decided to keep me on as one of their 'regular' employees. (yay) but seeing the major hours I put into working and the check that i received today...makes me want to cry..I need to get another job...this is just enough to pay my bills and have me eat TV dinners tell the next two weeks. I wish I had never quite my AE job..I was getting paid more than double for the same amount of hours that I did...it sucks... So I'm thinking about selling my car again...and pay off my loan..and just use the bus to get around. Though the last time I took it a big ol African-American bum was on it and looked at me and so I looked at him cause he caught my attention and then proceeded to talk to the bus drive using his outside voice, on how 'boring' people are...and people meaning me. I had no idea he was talking about me tell ten minutes later. He was going on and on and on about that...apparently my spaced out face is grimacing of some sorts. Which is sad...I need to start spacing out with a smile on my face. So anyway, he thought I was being racist...which if he really know what I was thinking wouldn't have said that. I thought he was cool cause he was talking about old Jazz music and sports and the Eastern coast...but then he left a sour taste in my mouth due to his comments. When I got up to get off the bus he stuck his face in my face and glared at me and I just smiled and kept walking, then when I got off called me a name that I cannot repeat. Its funny how angry people get and the perceptions they have. So long story short...I'm going to keep to the back of the bus from now on where the Indy kids and weirdos sit...they are much more chill and I tend to be left at peace...sometimes have some interesting conversations which strangers and hear peoples ideas about the world...I love hearing every ones points of views on things..its quite entertaining.

(Currently listening to The Moon and Antarctica by Modest Mouse)