Tuesday, November 11, 2008

lame days

Well I guess the world wasn't kidding when they said we are at a downfall in our economy. I guess I'm the great benefactor to all of that. Oh yes...the life with no money and only debt isn't that the greatest?! We should all just be so grateful to be broke. "Its the best" as Nacho would put it. On top of it all trying to live your life with others telling you to live it otherwise. Sucky eh? no it gets worst. Think of all that stress on you and then trying to relieve that stress with a drive and getting pulled over. That is just the great ego lifter of all. Yet another person asking for money from me. yeah...but lucky I didn't get a ticket dude to excessive wetness running down my face. You can say it. I'm a baby. I don't give a crap things suck. But whatever...just try and breathe I guess. That's all we can do for free anymore, for now, ...breathe. I look at where I am now and where I was a month ago. I should have stayed in Washington. Live MY life. Not be pushed and poked to something lesser. Something that 'others' see fit. I just need to get away, get away and be around people who don't know me. People who will except me...who will laugh when I laugh instead of trying to criticize. That is whats for me

3 comments:

Christina said...

Oh DJ!! I'm so sorry to hear that things are rough. I didn't realize that you had already moved back to UT. I was going to invite you over for Thanksgiving! Please let me know if there is anything we can do to help!

Mel said...

Believe me, Deej, I feel your pain. One good thing is that you don't have a family yet to try to make sure is taken care of. I'm sorry you feel so down right now. It has helped me to count my blessings, see all I do have right now. You are blessed too, in so many ways. If nothing else, you have a family who loves you tremendously and heck, I'm happy you're home! Offer still stands if you need a place to crash for a while, for free even, until you find a job and some stability. But truly, to find peace, just pray. That's the best thing. And I'm thoroughly convinced that when I poured my soul last Sunday is the reason I got a call for my lovely job that started Tuesday. He does hear and care.

Morley Muse said...

Deej, I am sorry. I wish I could take your pain. This will pass, I promise you. Ride this wave and try not to drown, you will make it to the warm sandy shore. I promise. I love you. Please don't listen to the criticism. I'm very happy you are home. Don't give up. I think the best thing is to pray. Pray for added strength. You WILL get it. BELIEVE you will. I love you. Please come by and visit or just hang out. Love you brother.