Well my time is being cut short up here in Washington. I just kinda hit a wall for myself...I really, for the first time, felt that I really need to go to school and finish up what I have started and prepare myself for what lies ahead. I'm excited, I can actually say that with confidence that I really am. Yes I am excited! I'm just going to push it through..if it be hard..I will do it. The hard thing for an individual to know is what he/she wants to do for the rest of their lives. I'd love to do alot of different things..not just be a one certain thing/person. That is why school is so hard for me. I can't just go and say...a writer..that is what I want to be...blah blah yadda yadda yadda. Or a dentist that is it. I just can't. I feel like I cant. The problem is that I would love to do a number of occupations and I'd enjoy doing them but I would not be making alot of money..and I want that to support me and keep me from worries..financially that is. I'd love to be a Marine biologist...work with the sea life...find new discoveries and twists in evolution. I'd love to be a chef..food is a passion of mine. I'd love to do just sit in the kitchen all day making delicious treats and meals! Radio Deejay, Musician, Pilot, Biologist, Meteorologist, journalist, and the list goes on. Why is it said that we must do one precise thing for a living...I just recently was wondering why I have had past jobs that I have had.
example- Golf course...I suck at golf..Its is fun but I'm not a huge golfer...Why wasn't I doing something that I was really interested in? Why wasn't I working at a used CD store as the manager? Why wasn't I working at a local rock climbing gym? Why wasn't I working at REI ten years ago!? All these questions I have no answer. I think we get in the mindset that we have to do something and that is the way life is and there is no other way around it. You do this..you do that...don't do what you like to do cause you are not smart and can't make money doing what it is that you like to do...blah blah blah.. We should look around and see what we can do that we REALLY enjoy not just say we enjoy and we should take that and try and make it a passion. Why can't someone who has a passion create songs or whatever and make money from it? If I say took six months out and just wrote songs on my own...I guarantee you I would have some pretty stellar songs..songs that may be even smiled upon by the record labels. Why is it that if I do that people and family members would say that my life is a waste? I wonder if parents said that about many of the famous artist that we enjoy? I bet alot of them did...If my son/daughter truly had passion for something I would encourage them...not look at it as horrible and try and stunt that passion. We should support those individuals that have a great passion for whatever and give'em a thumbs up and say right on! Good job! I dunno these are just a few things I have on my mind as of recent. As for now I say good day and always look up. Don't take the first persons advice if they say you can't...cause you can. Keep well! Peace :)
(Currently listening to Chicago by Sufjan Stevens)
5 comments:
Wow, there's sure a lot on your mind. I think school is a good thing no matter what you decide to do. Todd had a hard time deciding too. Your past jobs haven't been a waste--merely stepping stones to where you are headed. They have all given you experience in some way. Heck, I did lots of jobs I wasn't fond of, but I learned from them. You'll find what you love and what will support you and your future family. Glad we will be seeing more of you. Sorry you have to leave a place you had grown to love. Love you Deej.
You could always go to school there, right? U-Dub is a good one.
I could say a lot of things to you, brother, and you might take them to heart and you might not. Just know this ... I'm proud of the decision you have made. Cat Stevens sings about being on "The Road to Find Out" and, well, I'm 34 and I feel like I am on that road still. It's not a bad place to be, either.
You will discover what it is you want to do with your life when that time comes. I guaran-friggin-tee it. You're on your way.
Go hard or go home! Ha. Heard that before?
P.S. Nice music selection. Real nice.
DJ, Follow YOUR heart. Not anyone else's. You have done that and you still are doing that. We are here to LEARN. We learn in every situation we are in, if we go at it with that understanding. Some may feel that their way is the only way to learn. This is not so. Your past jobs and past experiences have not been a waste at all! All you can ask yourself is, have I learned from this? If you haven't, then look deeper, the lesson is there somewhere. There are so many people that support you, maybe they just aren't the obvious ones. Part of growing up is finding that path (like Dainon said). I know you will find it. Most importantly the Lord is very aware of you. Turn to Him, he will guide. I love you and I look forward to seeing you more.
Thanks guys for your support. You're words mean lots to me.. Thanks so much! :) Love ya all!
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